Life after hysterectomy for PMDD / PMS [aged 35]. UK

Life after a hysterectomy for PMDD / severe PMS, aged 35. It's vital that BOTH OVARIES are removed. Yes, it worked!! I am a strong advocate of HRT.

Month: March, 2012

I feel so good I could weep with joy (day 27 after a hysterectomy for PMDD)

I am so very glad I had the guts to go through with the hysterectomy! I have a wonderful calm but elated feeling. I’ve felt more able to focus, and to face up to jobs that need doing, without feeling horribly overwhelmed.

Yesterday I rejoined Weight Watchers – I haven’t been able to face going for years! In 2004/5 I lost 30lbs with Weight Watchers, it’s worked very well for me in the past, as long as I keep on going to meetings and being weighed. The reality is that I need to keep on going for my whole life, just like an alcoholic might go to AA – the fat person within me will always try to get out. This time I’ve got less than a stone to lose and I’m looking forward to being really trim for summer. I found before that being slim had a big effect on other areas of my life too, I felt bolder and more daring.

I’ve still got to be careful I don’t get too tired – my mood crashed at the weekend after I did too much. I had a late night out on Friday (which I’m not up to yet, in hindsight), and ignored my need for a nap beforehand, I then had to pull out of getting together with family for Mothering Sunday as I was low/tearful. I was fine again by Sunday night. I’m tracking everything carefully, so at least I can see the reason if my mood dips.

The Kalms tablets are still really helpful for helping me get to sleep. I haven’t taken any painkillers since day 19. My normal walking speed is fast, I’m not quite back to that yet and I can’t walk the same distances I used to yet.

Last night I watched a really fascinating programme about the female reproductive organs, on 4oD, with Doctor Gunther Von Hagens. Warning – do not watch this if you’re at all squeamish!

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Day 12 after a hysterectomy for PMDD – it’s easy to over do it

I worked a half day on day 5 post op (a talk at a nearby art college that I chose not to cancel). I felt pretty fragile physically so I took a taxi there, used a small roll-along suitcase for a handbag, didn’t carry it up any stairs myself, and gave my talk sitting down. Pertinently, it was a seminar about The Body. Another artist talked about having to conceptually rethink what her body’s purpose was, after finally accepting her own infertility and realising that she wanted to be a parent regardless. Her talk couldn’t have come at a better time for me, as I too now need to rethink my sense of self, now that my (chosen) infertility is concrete not abstract.

I’m now day 12 post op. I’ve taught a couple of full days (degree level), where I’ve been able to sit down frequently, that’s gone really well. I’m taking less painkillers, but I still need them. I’m a fast walker, and need to be careful not to over do it.

I drove short distances 1 week after the operation. I checked with my insurer first (very important to do this), they said I could drive whenever my doctor gave me the all clear (I’d been told 7 days).

I’m tracking my mood daily, along with my HRT doses. I’m not taking the Citalopram (I only took it for a couple of days post op). I’ve had a few blips where I’ve cried / felt low, but given that it’s not been long since the operation, I’d been stuck at home, and historically general anaesthetic has made me feel depressed, my mood has been better than I expected. I saw a particularly cute tot whilst out on Sunday, which triggered a mood swing (my partner and I had bickered too) – but it passed within hours. Deep down, while I love the idea of babies and toddlers, I know that I don’t want to be a parent for two decades. I’m waking up feeling positive and rested. I’m glad I had the operation done at this time of year, we’re having beautiful cool spring days now.

Update (written day 13): It turns out I’ve being overdoing it

I had a late night out on day 11 as I was feeling so good and sociable, after a full day’s work. It turns out that I need to rest more than I have been, and be more careful about how much walking I do. My mood crashed last night (on the evening of day 12), because I was tired and started over-thinking (worrying about possible loss of sexuality, and my infertility – things that I am calm and rational about when I’m rested). I had a good night’s sleep and feel happy again this morning, but a little sore. Plus I’ve just had cystitis, which isn’t surprising, when you think about the bladder being moved due to the operation. A post op NAPS forum friend of mine puts it very well:

Its easily done with a laparoscopic hysterectomy as you don’t have the wounds to remind you that you’ve had major surgery…I was advised to stay in pj’s for two weeks to remind myself I needed to relax…..when you do too much you will know like you’ve found out as it affects your mood…stress and tiredness lowers your oestrogen levels so always make sure you make time for yourself each day to have a rest and a nap…at least for 6 weeks.